Webster Says...

Yesterday I was reminded that my new job will require me to be more subservient. Who would have thought the car business can teach you Christian traits. But infact it is true! As I continue to try to figure out the "business world" I am forever reminded that those things that God ask us to be will help us out in our career's as well. So I begin to wonder...Really wonder...What subservient meant. Well my dad gave me the best definition, like a soldier to his country, humble, willing to serve, without ego. Wow! That is what God asks me to be in every aspect of my life, as a mom, as a wife, as a child, as an employee, as a Christian and a child of God. So when I read what Webster had to say, "a servant in an inferior position" I begin to think he didn't have it all figured out. Subservient has a negative sound to it, but I don't think it is. I think it is an honor to serve people and a great characteristic to be humble. So maybe if I would have listened better as a child, and listened...Really listen to what the be attitudes say, I would be better off. Now if I could just get that patience thing down...But for now I will work on being subservient in every aspect of my life, from the car business to the mommy business.

There is a Season

There is a season and apparantly my season right now is insanity. Things are crazy...well mainly work is crazy. There actually is a season in my life and it is the season of change and growth. I continue to love the company that I work for, and by the grace of God I continue to grow and advance. All of this is wonderful and I couldnt ask for anything more. Infact I could ask for something a little less...stress. There are times in my life when I have to step back and remind myself of who is in control, and that no matter what time works out the kinks in the plan. The hardest part is that when you work for a large company and you advance and others dont, you always have some oppositiong. But it is like my boss said to me this morning, anything worth something will probably require a little fight. And that is true and good advice. She doesnt mean that I should go beat everyone up, but it means that I have to stand strong that I deserve this, that I have earned it and that I am ready for the next challenge. Someone always thinks they can do a job better than some one else. Not to brag on myself, but sometimes I am pretty sure that I should have a big S stamped on my chest for the amount of stuff that I do around this place. But I love it! I love being needed, I love being driven, and I love be respected by the people who matter. I feel like after a rough time leaving my last job under the circumstances in which I left. I thought that maybe the idea of loving your job was just a nice idea. But after a year and a half here, I realize that is not the case. I feel like I have found my place. Now if I could just handle the stress a little better than I do. Is it wrong that I want to claw some peoples eyes out...JK! When things get overwhelming I can just look at this sweet face and be reminded how lucky I am and what I have waiting for me at home.

By the way...on a Chloe note...she has started wearing sunglasses and thinks it is the most fabulous thing ever. She never touches them and then pucker her lips. She looks like a true diva and I just want to eat her up. These pictures are from this past weekend, but I will get one in the sunglasses and post so everyone can see my little diva.

Something I am Tired Of

I am exhausted. My body is having a hard time gearing up and getting going in the morning, and I need a boost of energy. Having a job, a nine month old, and a husband takes its toll on a mommy. But more than just the day to day there is one in particular thing I am tired of, and since I have refrained from using my blog to gripe and complain since I had Chloe, well the time has come. If you are not really in the mood to hearing me complain I suggest you visit this website, thefuguas.org, they have a really cute video of the sweetest little boy you have ever seen...but today my blog is for griping.

So here it goes...just because someone doesnt come out and say it a comment like this means the same thing..."I would just NEVER put my child in day care." Ok now to all stay at home moms, let me first say, my hat is off to you! You have a very hard job and it is even harder that you are alone all day. So let me say I applaud you for your strength. With that said, as a working mom, I am not taking the easy road. Infact, I believe at times I choose the harder road. To have everyone dressed, packed and out the door by 7:45 takes alot, and to do it everyday takes even more. Then to come home at night and play, cook dinner, bathe, feed, and put to bed everyone at a decent hour can really take its toll. When people (mostly women) say to me, I would never...I want to ask, what they heck is so wrong with it. My child loves "school". She is happy, well adjusted, socially "mature", she has learned to share, crawl, talk, and laugh. She does not sit and stare into an oblivion, barf all the time, cry profusly, or look like an unhappy. My child has not been in any way damaged by day care. Some people dont understand what my job gives me. Most people do a job because they have to, not because they want to. I WANT TO. I LOVE TO. I love my job, not more than my baby, but I love my job. So people stop giving me your opinion on how I have it easy, or how I am a "bad mom" because I think some day cares are ok. It is not like I leave her in a card board box in the utility room all day. She has wonderful care givers. So there is my gripe. I feel a little better. I actually feel a little more rejuvinated. Thanks blog land for letting me vent.

Never In All My Life

Last Friday I left on a business trip. This trip was supposed to part "pleasure" part "business"...it turned out to be all WORK and NO PLAY. But that wasnt the worst part. Never in all my life would I have thought that I could miss two people so much. I could not wait to get home and see my sweet baby and wonderful husband. It was the hardest few days ever. When I came back to town all I wanted to do was hold and rock her, but unfortunately she doesnt do that anymore, because now she is crawling over everything and walking along walls. It was so hard to not be with her. As a general rule, I dont have to go out of town for my job. This was an unusual event. But it did help me realize I would never want a job where I traveled all the time. My family is the most wonderful precious thing in my life, and it just takes a few days of not having them to realize how I take them for granted. J and Chloes face never looked sweeter. So needless to say I am so glad to be home and that I have the best family there ever was. When I got back there was a new trick we have...she crawls over to the window at the front of the house, stands up and watches the cars, or birdies or whatever else might happen by that window. It is her new favorite place. Below you can see a picture of her enjoying her new favorite place. Her bottom looks big, but I swear it is just the diaper.