When I was pregnant with Chloe I journaled alot of it through my blog. It consisted mainly of me griping about my indegestion or growing waistline, but nonetheless it was a journal of my pregnancy with her. I feel like I should do this for baby number two as well, although I feel that this journal will take on a different shape. Having been through pregnancy before the morning sickness has not come as a big surprise -or in my case morning, afternoon and night- and neither is the idea that in a few months my body will take on a whole new appearance, and with round one running happily around the house as a beautiful, silly two and a half year old those things that seemed so "annoying" during the first pregnancy, now seem to be- well- worth it! So I can see this new pregnancy journal taking on the thoughts and feelings I am having as i am about to do this whole mommy thing again.
As I look at Chloe it is hard to remember her as that tiny little baby I brought home that Saturday in July, and yet at the same time it seems like it was yesterday. It took me a few weeks to get balanced out on work and mommy life and it has taken me longer to get both being a working woman and a mom to happily coexsist together. For us- so far- this mix has worked for our family and just before I found out baby number two was in route I was telling J how I felt like I had this under control. I knew what I was doing and minor hiccups in the schedules of the day didnt seem to make a difference anymore. I had found the energy, the desire and the ability to "do all I need to do" to be a good mom, wife and employee. Then God laughed and said, then it is time for round 2!
It is hard to believe that we are doing this all again, and I know to some two children, three years apart seems like a cake walk (Kara, Leslie, Hannah, Allison...the list goes on) but it is hard to believe that I will be a mother of two and it is hard to believe that this time could all be different and that it wont be Chloe we bring home again. It will be a completely new ballgame with a completely new child. One who could possible be- not as healthy as Chloe or who has a senstive gag reflex- Chloe has never thrown up (knock on wood) So this time around I imagine this journal will be more about what our family of three will be like as a family of four. I am excited, happy and blessed- but I am also a little sad to be giving up our little family of three, I am nervous about what baby number two will challege me with and I find it almost mind boggling that I could love another child the way I love our first little one.
So dear readers (which I have found out from the previous entry there are more of you than I realized- lurkers!) bear with me over the next nine months as I get ready for the challenge as a mommy of TWO! Dont worry- you will be rewarded with pictures.
