On the Lighter Side

Ok, after my little rampage yesterday I decided to post some lighter news as well as some pictures. Chloe has discovered her volume button and enjoys squealing at her daddy and I. She also feels the need to show us that she can pick up every toy and hold it up "high". This is no matter how big the toy is. The pictures below are of her and her boyfriend Ethan. They definately are aware of each other and try their hardest to poke at each others eyes. They do hold hands alot and Sunday at church they tried really hard not to talk during church. Below is a their engagement picture. Atleast that is what I think it looks like. We think they are both precious and feel blessed to have friends like Summer and Brad and that Chloe has Ethan. There are also some pictures of her in her new bath seat that she is throughly enjoying. Now that she can sit up in tub she can splash and kick all she wants.

Ever Been TO Scared to Pray?

Normally, being the happy person I am, I try to blog about fun, silly or eventful things in our lives, but today I feel the overwhelming need to ask a question...Have you ever been to scared to pray? I know that sounds stupid. You are probably thinking to yourself, "hey stupid it should be easier to pray when you are scared." Well here is what brought this question about. God has really been working on my heart, trying to bring me closer to him, to where I need to be. This I know will help me be a better wife, mom, friend...a better a lot of things. But I have decided that I stay detached because I have to many questions. I want to ask God things that I know there is now understanding too. I have always been frustrated with that. Some things are big and some things are just big to me. What brought this feeling on full force was reading Joe and Laura Hays blog. First let me share briefly the story...Ira is almost a year, and for almost ALL of that year he has spent his life in the PICU or NICU. This makes me angry. No child should live this way. I grieve that this little boy doesnt get to sit in his house and play with is toys. But what bothers me and frustrates me more is that he has been sedated and restrained since December 24th. This is done for his own benefit so that he doesnt pull his tube out. This means since December 24th this child has not been held by his mother or father. On Wednesday they are extubating him, to give him a chance to breath on his own, if this works he can be unsedated and be held. I want to cry out from every ounce of me that this goes well and that Ira breaths and that all is well, but I AM SCARED. Scared of being let down and knowing that if this doesnt work that he will have a tracheostomy and that is unreal and will be devastating for Joe and Laura. So how do you pray when you are scared. When the outcome could crush your heart. I know that He knows I am scared. But I plead with God to give this little boy a full breath. Let him be healed by you. Sustain Joe and Laura. Just let him breathe!!!

My Funny Valentine

Sorry for the long span of post time. Things of course are always busy at work and when I go home I want to spend time with the family and not blogging. Today is valentines, typically it is my least favorite day of the year. I dont need a day to tell me I love my husband, but todays valentines is great because I got to see the sweetest face wake up this morning, and I am not talking about my husband. I love his face, dont get me wrong, but the sweet face I am talking about is my funny valentine. She looked cute going to school and one day when she is old enough to understand what today is I will make sure to have a valentines treat for her just like my mom always did. She is giving us the sweetest kisses and has the sweetest personality. I have posted some pictures and I hope that they make your valentines good...